Many a time, I am alone. I become alone. I am usually not lonely (referred to the feeling of loneliness). There is a being inside me. Almost all introverts like me would agree to this. When I am alone, I am with that being. I would call it as the insider (not the notable book of P.V.Narasimha Rao). The insider talks to me all the time. He never leaves me alone. When I did Yogic meditation in the mornings of 2007, over the terrace before going for work, i had him quiet. But not for many days. It creeps and crawls into the dark cellars of my mind probing something. I have no control over him unless I do yoga and meditation.
I know that if I send the above lines to any psychiatrist, he will simply prescribe drugs for schizzophrenia or obsessive compulsive disorder or bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder (these are some words I extremely am in love with). I am not making my web-life a psychopath's thrilling adventure-story. I have my musings. Thats all I wanted to convey.
My thoughts revolving around my being are very annoying. They are like buzzing bees. So to reduce the pain it gives, I type it down in my Cellphone's (Sony Ericson W700i) Notes application. So I have lot of notes inside my cellphone. Nowadays when i try to enter a new note, its saying 'overloaded and not able to create new notes. Please delete some'. The contents in the notes are elementary and not elaborated. They are in simple and precise sentences. For a particular subject there may be more or less 2 ideas. But when i try to get it down here, i may tend to elucidate upon them. I would like to pen them down in the coming days...
jo
Friday, December 18, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Harmony is the goal; Dissonance is the hindrance...
I saw a film today named 'Amelie'. It is a french film in which an introverted love seeking woman named 'Amelie' starts feeling a sense of harmony in herself after she decides to mend the messy lives of people around her. For doing it she devises funny strategic ways and enacts it with perfection. Later she realies it needs courage to mend one's own messy life. The story is about how a young lady like Amelie gather enough courage to make it happen.
Harmony is what we want. And harmony in the way we feel ourselves is the intoxication we search here and there. We try to find it in our relationships. We try to find in our work places. We try to find it in cocaine,alcohol and tobacco. We want physical, spiritual and mental harmony for which we join Yoga and Pranayam. We do meditation. We do aerobics. What all we do for this elusive stuff called harmony. We fight even world wars for harmony.
This harmony is physical,mental and spiritual all at the same time. Socrates had told : "Its good to marry; If you get a good wife, you can be happy. If you get a bad one, you can be a philosopher." It needs lack of harmony for becoming a philosopher. A person in harmony doesn't look for meaning of life and other metaphysics. He doesn't find it needed at the moment when he is in harmony. J.Krishnamurthi had told same stuff when he was asked whats the meaning of life.
Students from good families are blessed with harmony in themselves. Affection from family or other relationships is the greatest source of harmony for most of the human beings. This harmony is what that makes those students excel in their life. If somebody lacks harmony he won't be able to grow. He will be in a rut. He is in a vicious cycle in which he ends up in dissonance whatever he does to overcome.
I don't understand the mechanics of harmony. When you feel the affection of somebody, out of nothing harmony takes birth in you. You don't remember you were depressed the moment before. That might be what being-completely-in-the-moment means for Osho and J.Krishnamurthi.
The dissonance is what you have to dispell from your life. If that is done, you are bound to grow in harmony and you reach the goal. From lower harmony to higher you take strides on and on. Let your destiny unravel with its own ways of dispelling the only hindrance to reach the goal ie. dissonance.
I had gone for my Abhyudaya session today. It is a scheme in which PGDM students are asked to mentor a child from poor family background. We are required to guide them not only in their studies but also building positively their personality, attitude and the whole outlook towards their life, others lives and society as a whole. The word Abhyudaya means 'growing together'. I remember 'selfless service' is one of the ways to reach Krishna(Consciousness) from my reading of Bhagvat Gita. Krishna is a mythological name given to harmony as far as I know the indian philosophy. I do feel abhyudaya is quite a means to be harmonious. I also feel management is nothing but building harmony inside yourself which will be reflected outside by ist own law. The law being 'What is our inside world becomes our outside world'.
A really long prose can be written on this abstract subject. Anyway all this will remain in theory itself unless you experience it atleast once.
jo
Harmony is what we want. And harmony in the way we feel ourselves is the intoxication we search here and there. We try to find it in our relationships. We try to find in our work places. We try to find it in cocaine,alcohol and tobacco. We want physical, spiritual and mental harmony for which we join Yoga and Pranayam. We do meditation. We do aerobics. What all we do for this elusive stuff called harmony. We fight even world wars for harmony.
This harmony is physical,mental and spiritual all at the same time. Socrates had told : "Its good to marry; If you get a good wife, you can be happy. If you get a bad one, you can be a philosopher." It needs lack of harmony for becoming a philosopher. A person in harmony doesn't look for meaning of life and other metaphysics. He doesn't find it needed at the moment when he is in harmony. J.Krishnamurthi had told same stuff when he was asked whats the meaning of life.
Students from good families are blessed with harmony in themselves. Affection from family or other relationships is the greatest source of harmony for most of the human beings. This harmony is what that makes those students excel in their life. If somebody lacks harmony he won't be able to grow. He will be in a rut. He is in a vicious cycle in which he ends up in dissonance whatever he does to overcome.
I don't understand the mechanics of harmony. When you feel the affection of somebody, out of nothing harmony takes birth in you. You don't remember you were depressed the moment before. That might be what being-completely-in-the-moment means for Osho and J.Krishnamurthi.
The dissonance is what you have to dispell from your life. If that is done, you are bound to grow in harmony and you reach the goal. From lower harmony to higher you take strides on and on. Let your destiny unravel with its own ways of dispelling the only hindrance to reach the goal ie. dissonance.
I had gone for my Abhyudaya session today. It is a scheme in which PGDM students are asked to mentor a child from poor family background. We are required to guide them not only in their studies but also building positively their personality, attitude and the whole outlook towards their life, others lives and society as a whole. The word Abhyudaya means 'growing together'. I remember 'selfless service' is one of the ways to reach Krishna(Consciousness) from my reading of Bhagvat Gita. Krishna is a mythological name given to harmony as far as I know the indian philosophy. I do feel abhyudaya is quite a means to be harmonious. I also feel management is nothing but building harmony inside yourself which will be reflected outside by ist own law. The law being 'What is our inside world becomes our outside world'.
A really long prose can be written on this abstract subject. Anyway all this will remain in theory itself unless you experience it atleast once.
jo
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Being good and suffering pain
You may be thinking that 'doing/being good' is a privilege you have to live in this world with greater comfort. If you think that ethical living will give you an easy living, you are wrong.
Nature teaches it in this way - It doesn't matter if you are a carnivore or a herbivore, other carnivores will never stop hunting you. Doing good is no reason for the wild world to behave nicely to innocent you.
There are a zillion of examples in real life for this many of which you yourself can think of from your personal lives. You may be good. But its not a shield for you to get protected from being cheated by the best of your friends. Its not that you will never be suffering from others actions if you are good. Moral of the story is not that you have to be cruel to prevent.
Most of the people are conditioned to believe that when they do good, only good things will happen to them. Its the duty of the Supreme Being to make arranagements to shower good things to the good doer. Is it that way? Is it not justice if bad things happen to good people?
Too much on doing good without the concept of karma is handicapped. The theory of karma given by Bhagavat Gita says if you do selfless service to the worthy people, you will feel some supreme presence of goodness or happiness in you. There are many people working with NGOs who are living examples to this. This part of human existence is called Spiritual Quotient.
In my college,SPJIMR, we have a faculty named Mr. Parimal Merchant who has been collaborating with various NGOs apart from teaching students. His personal experience says, the selfless acts to the worthy people fills a vaccum. It is like drops of rain water in the dry soil in summer. As a result of this, his personal power increases. He is loved by everyone in the college. Theres nobody in the college who is not a fan of his ways. His personlaity is worth emulating.
So do not lose heart. Do good and feel the supreme being's presence in yourself. Its the easiest and fastet way compared to sitting idle for meditation.
jo
Nature teaches it in this way - It doesn't matter if you are a carnivore or a herbivore, other carnivores will never stop hunting you. Doing good is no reason for the wild world to behave nicely to innocent you.
There are a zillion of examples in real life for this many of which you yourself can think of from your personal lives. You may be good. But its not a shield for you to get protected from being cheated by the best of your friends. Its not that you will never be suffering from others actions if you are good. Moral of the story is not that you have to be cruel to prevent.
Most of the people are conditioned to believe that when they do good, only good things will happen to them. Its the duty of the Supreme Being to make arranagements to shower good things to the good doer. Is it that way? Is it not justice if bad things happen to good people?
Too much on doing good without the concept of karma is handicapped. The theory of karma given by Bhagavat Gita says if you do selfless service to the worthy people, you will feel some supreme presence of goodness or happiness in you. There are many people working with NGOs who are living examples to this. This part of human existence is called Spiritual Quotient.
In my college,SPJIMR, we have a faculty named Mr. Parimal Merchant who has been collaborating with various NGOs apart from teaching students. His personal experience says, the selfless acts to the worthy people fills a vaccum. It is like drops of rain water in the dry soil in summer. As a result of this, his personal power increases. He is loved by everyone in the college. Theres nobody in the college who is not a fan of his ways. His personlaity is worth emulating.
So do not lose heart. Do good and feel the supreme being's presence in yourself. Its the easiest and fastet way compared to sitting idle for meditation.
jo
Sunday, October 11, 2009
A call for being a yogi
I recently read somewhere, among a set of buddhist monks, a criteria for selecting the 'guru' (gu-darkness,ru-dispel meaning Spiritual Teacher) of the community is the dexterity with which one controls his blood pressure...
Dr. Pravin Koppikar is a very famous doctor having a clinic at Seven Bungalows,Andheri (West),Mumbai. He told i seemed like having flu. He gave me meddication for 5 days. During his regular check up, he found in me blood pressure in a level which is more than normal. My BP measured 140/94 to a normal of 120/80 for a guy of my age. I didn't have jitters hearing that. Praneeth, my friend in next room of hostel, asked me how you are so cool having known your condition.
The doctor gave me a one page info leaflet for letting me know more about Hypertension(HT). HT can not be cured unfortunately but can only be controlled. This is a positive sign. This is something which goes with my subtle desire of becoming a yogi. I resolve to do yoga for reducing my weight, stress and bp forever. There were no great physical cause to do it. But now i can see all the fingers pointing to me being a yogi.
I can't forget the awe and wonder with which i read the legendary popular book by a yogi, Yogi Yogananda Pramahamsa. I had bought it from Mangalore central railway station for Rs.125 when i was about to journey to my home in kerala. All the yogic powers which is mentioned in the book, i will be posessing. I will be beyond doubt knowing the supreme truth. The tomorrow has become better with this hypertension. Now starts a new life with ht...
jo
Dr. Pravin Koppikar is a very famous doctor having a clinic at Seven Bungalows,Andheri (West),Mumbai. He told i seemed like having flu. He gave me meddication for 5 days. During his regular check up, he found in me blood pressure in a level which is more than normal. My BP measured 140/94 to a normal of 120/80 for a guy of my age. I didn't have jitters hearing that. Praneeth, my friend in next room of hostel, asked me how you are so cool having known your condition.
The doctor gave me a one page info leaflet for letting me know more about Hypertension(HT). HT can not be cured unfortunately but can only be controlled. This is a positive sign. This is something which goes with my subtle desire of becoming a yogi. I resolve to do yoga for reducing my weight, stress and bp forever. There were no great physical cause to do it. But now i can see all the fingers pointing to me being a yogi.
I can't forget the awe and wonder with which i read the legendary popular book by a yogi, Yogi Yogananda Pramahamsa. I had bought it from Mangalore central railway station for Rs.125 when i was about to journey to my home in kerala. All the yogic powers which is mentioned in the book, i will be posessing. I will be beyond doubt knowing the supreme truth. The tomorrow has become better with this hypertension. Now starts a new life with ht...
jo
Friday, October 9, 2009
I am not a marketing guy, I am a finance guy.
I am not at all a marketing guy. I had applied a lot to many B-schools for marketing specialisation. I didn't get through even a single one. I had thought that interviews and Group discussions are meant to all specialisation. I had thought they won't evaluate you on the basis of the specialisation i have applied for. That was a foolish thing from my side. No B-school found the 'marketing stuff' in me. But somehow ,fortunately, I reached in a blessed institution called SPJIMR and in Finance specialisation.
I remember the day I filled the Online Application Form of S.P.Jain Institute of Management and Research, Mumbai. First among the stuffs to be filled was Finance. In a single page, specialisation opting for was being asked, and a submit sign! I don't know what happened, consciously or subconsciously I selected 'Finance' and pressed the 'Submit' Button! Whoosh! I realised in that split second, there's something unusual going on. I had always opted for Marketing in all the other B-schools and now i had just opted finance. I checked for all ways in the website to change the specialisation already submitted. It went to a wasted attempt. But i didn't bother about it. I felt i will be fine with whatever specialisation i would be taking.
All this happened after that filling of application form in spjimr.org. I got selected in the first list itself for Finance specialisation in SPJIMR. And no other Big institutes selected me. K.J Somaiyya Mumbai, IFMR Chennai, SIBM Bangalore etc didn't take me. A momentary sadness prevailed then. Last among the colleges who aired out the results were SPJIMR. Last week of April 2009. In night I was not getting sleep. i waked up at around 2.30- 3.00 am and checked the SPJIMR website. And..the last moment of striving to get into a reputed B-school. I didn't prepare for interview, I didn't enjoy the interview so as to receive positive vibes from the Panel. And now i am here in SPJIMR.
When I was in Trimester 1, for the purpose of an assignment in 'Organisational behaviour' a.k.a 'People and Performance' course, I had asked many friends about myself. Name of the assignment was 'Reflected Best Self' or RBS. It was for finding out how the people around you, with whom you lived with, you studied with, you worked with, etc. are thinking about me. How is the process 'me' occurs to others. One of my friends who was my classmate in Mechanical Engineering batch of 2002-06, George K Perekkat or simply 'Pera' responded to me in a very precise and deep manner. He wrote back to me and among the list was this line 'An introvert but trying to be extrovert'.
Now I know myself better. I was deluded by extrovertish people being lauded by others for possessing so-called heroic qulaities like eloquency, courage, public speaking, communication skill,etc. I am basically an introvert. I am not good in communication skills. I am not a spontaneous person. I am a thinking person. I am not a doing person. I am an analytical detail oriented person. I am not basically an intuitive person. I am a mathematical person. I am not a histroy/social-studies/english/extracurricular-activities person. So I am realising myself right here and now. I am a finance guy.
I really felt in the wee hours of the morning, i was destined to be here in this institute in this specialisation...
jo
I remember the day I filled the Online Application Form of S.P.Jain Institute of Management and Research, Mumbai. First among the stuffs to be filled was Finance. In a single page, specialisation opting for was being asked, and a submit sign! I don't know what happened, consciously or subconsciously I selected 'Finance' and pressed the 'Submit' Button! Whoosh! I realised in that split second, there's something unusual going on. I had always opted for Marketing in all the other B-schools and now i had just opted finance. I checked for all ways in the website to change the specialisation already submitted. It went to a wasted attempt. But i didn't bother about it. I felt i will be fine with whatever specialisation i would be taking.
All this happened after that filling of application form in spjimr.org. I got selected in the first list itself for Finance specialisation in SPJIMR. And no other Big institutes selected me. K.J Somaiyya Mumbai, IFMR Chennai, SIBM Bangalore etc didn't take me. A momentary sadness prevailed then. Last among the colleges who aired out the results were SPJIMR. Last week of April 2009. In night I was not getting sleep. i waked up at around 2.30- 3.00 am and checked the SPJIMR website. And..the last moment of striving to get into a reputed B-school. I didn't prepare for interview, I didn't enjoy the interview so as to receive positive vibes from the Panel. And now i am here in SPJIMR.
When I was in Trimester 1, for the purpose of an assignment in 'Organisational behaviour' a.k.a 'People and Performance' course, I had asked many friends about myself. Name of the assignment was 'Reflected Best Self' or RBS. It was for finding out how the people around you, with whom you lived with, you studied with, you worked with, etc. are thinking about me. How is the process 'me' occurs to others. One of my friends who was my classmate in Mechanical Engineering batch of 2002-06, George K Perekkat or simply 'Pera' responded to me in a very precise and deep manner. He wrote back to me and among the list was this line 'An introvert but trying to be extrovert'.
Now I know myself better. I was deluded by extrovertish people being lauded by others for possessing so-called heroic qulaities like eloquency, courage, public speaking, communication skill,etc. I am basically an introvert. I am not good in communication skills. I am not a spontaneous person. I am a thinking person. I am not a doing person. I am an analytical detail oriented person. I am not basically an intuitive person. I am a mathematical person. I am not a histroy/social-studies/english/extracurricular-activities person. So I am realising myself right here and now. I am a finance guy.
I really felt in the wee hours of the morning, i was destined to be here in this institute in this specialisation...
jo
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Coming out of the Vicious Circle of loneliness
I wonder if i am in a vicious circle of loneliness...
Once i was suffering from depression. Then i became an introverted, reserved and non-social loner. I kept myself away from the people. I tasted how the depression feels like. I know it and i know at the cost of my health, vigour, extraversion and humour sense. It made me a loner. The loneliness in return makes me depressed. Perpetual vicious circle of loneliness..
Its like vicious circle or poverty. You don't have money for investing on yourself. You remain poor. And you don't have money to invest on your children also. Perpetual vicious circle of poverty..
All the vicious circles of negative things are like this i suppose.. For breaking this circle what got introduced into the economy is the Investment, investment by poor in whatever possible and investment by others which has the potential to change the live of poor.
I want in my life such an investment from my side and attempt to stimulate investment by others.. How to get it be done ? how to get out of this ...?
Being a philosopher, i have to keep myself in grief forever so that i can be a philosopher for ever..? Socrates was made philosopher by the meaningless pathetic life he had. Philosophy is a ghost which refuse to leave you in grief. It is an escape from reality? I really don't know.
jo
Once i was suffering from depression. Then i became an introverted, reserved and non-social loner. I kept myself away from the people. I tasted how the depression feels like. I know it and i know at the cost of my health, vigour, extraversion and humour sense. It made me a loner. The loneliness in return makes me depressed. Perpetual vicious circle of loneliness..
Its like vicious circle or poverty. You don't have money for investing on yourself. You remain poor. And you don't have money to invest on your children also. Perpetual vicious circle of poverty..
All the vicious circles of negative things are like this i suppose.. For breaking this circle what got introduced into the economy is the Investment, investment by poor in whatever possible and investment by others which has the potential to change the live of poor.
I want in my life such an investment from my side and attempt to stimulate investment by others.. How to get it be done ? how to get out of this ...?
Being a philosopher, i have to keep myself in grief forever so that i can be a philosopher for ever..? Socrates was made philosopher by the meaningless pathetic life he had. Philosophy is a ghost which refuse to leave you in grief. It is an escape from reality? I really don't know.
jo
Thursday, September 10, 2009
I dont like malayalees
Malayaless are Kolayalees (killers)..she had told me..
She was more a tamilian than a malayalee..perhaps that was the element that kept us together...
We could find non-malayalees in each others...
I dont know from when i started hating the land i was born to...
The more i got to know people from other states of india, the more the hated malayalees...
They are negatively educated - educated to think about only the obstacles and criticize whatever that is happening around the world... Leftist people think that to be able to criticize is a wonderful art and a part and parcel of education... This is not true education.. Education is not the skill to find fault in everything... Education is simply acquiring the knowledge that nothing is perfect...Education is the skill to know the truth rather than taking a perspective and damn it...
It is possible to find fault with everything..once i had written that the seemingly innocent new born babies are cruel, egotistic destructive forces just behind the curtain of time.. It just meant that most of the innocent babies in kerala grow up to become goddam shit eaters and f**kers..
Nothing to be concealed, I am one of them.
Mallu girls are brought up telling them that all the boys exist in kerala only to rape them..
When a boy is first approaching to talk to a mallu girl, first thing she will think about is the pain of penetration when he would rape her..
All mallus are frustrated pieces of shit...Clear indicators are the fact being the largest consumer of alcoholic drinks and being the state in india having the 3 times higher rates of suicides than the average..
This has been a real sweeper of cortisol and releaser of the opioid endorphins in my head...wow..
jo
She was more a tamilian than a malayalee..perhaps that was the element that kept us together...
We could find non-malayalees in each others...
I dont know from when i started hating the land i was born to...
The more i got to know people from other states of india, the more the hated malayalees...
They are negatively educated - educated to think about only the obstacles and criticize whatever that is happening around the world... Leftist people think that to be able to criticize is a wonderful art and a part and parcel of education... This is not true education.. Education is not the skill to find fault in everything... Education is simply acquiring the knowledge that nothing is perfect...Education is the skill to know the truth rather than taking a perspective and damn it...
It is possible to find fault with everything..once i had written that the seemingly innocent new born babies are cruel, egotistic destructive forces just behind the curtain of time.. It just meant that most of the innocent babies in kerala grow up to become goddam shit eaters and f**kers..
Nothing to be concealed, I am one of them.
Mallu girls are brought up telling them that all the boys exist in kerala only to rape them..
When a boy is first approaching to talk to a mallu girl, first thing she will think about is the pain of penetration when he would rape her..
All mallus are frustrated pieces of shit...Clear indicators are the fact being the largest consumer of alcoholic drinks and being the state in india having the 3 times higher rates of suicides than the average..
This has been a real sweeper of cortisol and releaser of the opioid endorphins in my head...wow..
jo
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Trance Experience
Buddha Bar is a lounge,chill out music which can guide you in a trance...
And trance is a state where you feel and all you can do is feel only...
Whatever you can feel , you cant express...Music is so subtle that you wont bother expressing it to others...
Those who have done yoga or meditation continuously and regularly knows what a trance is...Psychologically its an ASC (Altered state of consciousness)...
Zen says more you try to express, the more you confuse yourself and others...
So I am not trying to express this...
But in those moments you want to be alone (or need to be alone) and enjoy with the solitude...
I have seen listening to trance in the mornings or just after Yoga is the most effective way to drift into trance...
Last week I had continuous yoga sessions and one day after the practice i returned to my lappy to listen Buddha Bar. I drifted to a sleep, a sleep which you cant escape and so deep.
May be that was what yogis call yoga nidra or something...
I had tried to express this kind of feelings to others, especially my friends Arun and Rahul.
They usually scornfully or sneeringly pass comments.. They take it as a comedy or what i don't know. As usuall they call me 'guru' to poke fun at me or call mad..
Rahul may sometimes lose himself and will argue that theres nothing in this world which u cant express. I see in his eyes a disregard,anger and contempt to the existence - a typical existential angst. Arun is not behind in this regard. He is a evolutionary specialist. He wants to explain everything with evolutionary developments - all hypothetical and not proved. He recommended a book by great biologist Richard Dawkins - The Selfish Gene. It is at my home. Next month when i go home I will take it for a reading for sure.
For a long time I miss that sleep or state. Due to hectic life in Spjimr i have been missing yoga for 3 days. At last i waked up today early and went yoga. In Yoga Bharati (my yoga practising center). i have seen some kind of instructions going on by my yoga master to interested students.. I heard some words of his dictation from distance like 'vital force' and yoga is all about 'controlling the vital force'.. i don't want to miss yoga anymore.
Regards
Jo
And trance is a state where you feel and all you can do is feel only...
Whatever you can feel , you cant express...Music is so subtle that you wont bother expressing it to others...
Those who have done yoga or meditation continuously and regularly knows what a trance is...Psychologically its an ASC (Altered state of consciousness)...
Zen says more you try to express, the more you confuse yourself and others...
So I am not trying to express this...
But in those moments you want to be alone (or need to be alone) and enjoy with the solitude...
I have seen listening to trance in the mornings or just after Yoga is the most effective way to drift into trance...
Last week I had continuous yoga sessions and one day after the practice i returned to my lappy to listen Buddha Bar. I drifted to a sleep, a sleep which you cant escape and so deep.
May be that was what yogis call yoga nidra or something...
I had tried to express this kind of feelings to others, especially my friends Arun and Rahul.
They usually scornfully or sneeringly pass comments.. They take it as a comedy or what i don't know. As usuall they call me 'guru' to poke fun at me or call mad..
Rahul may sometimes lose himself and will argue that theres nothing in this world which u cant express. I see in his eyes a disregard,anger and contempt to the existence - a typical existential angst. Arun is not behind in this regard. He is a evolutionary specialist. He wants to explain everything with evolutionary developments - all hypothetical and not proved. He recommended a book by great biologist Richard Dawkins - The Selfish Gene. It is at my home. Next month when i go home I will take it for a reading for sure.
For a long time I miss that sleep or state. Due to hectic life in Spjimr i have been missing yoga for 3 days. At last i waked up today early and went yoga. In Yoga Bharati (my yoga practising center). i have seen some kind of instructions going on by my yoga master to interested students.. I heard some words of his dictation from distance like 'vital force' and yoga is all about 'controlling the vital force'.. i don't want to miss yoga anymore.
Regards
Jo
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Lose yourself in the music
Yesterday i had a surprise test..and the first thing i had in my mind was the Surprise Test Paradox.. Later came the apprehensions..But i set it aside to move towards my
policy of 'dont take life seriously'...
So i made a crap soup out of the question paper and jumped out of the exam room and enjoyed fresh air outside... I went to Juhu beach with my cousin Thomas and spent a relaxing time there...
I had always got surprised over the amount of time devoted by Tomy(thomas) and my room partner vivek. But today i slept 70% of the day sleeping... I dint go to yoga bharti(yoga practising center). I dint go for Placement Process rehearsal session.. I slept through out.. I waked up for lunch , had lunch and came back to sleep till 8.30 pm..
Now i think i am coming closer to the music here.. i am losing myself in this music..
Jo
policy of 'dont take life seriously'...
So i made a crap soup out of the question paper and jumped out of the exam room and enjoyed fresh air outside... I went to Juhu beach with my cousin Thomas and spent a relaxing time there...
I had always got surprised over the amount of time devoted by Tomy(thomas) and my room partner vivek. But today i slept 70% of the day sleeping... I dint go to yoga bharti(yoga practising center). I dint go for Placement Process rehearsal session.. I slept through out.. I waked up for lunch , had lunch and came back to sleep till 8.30 pm..
Now i think i am coming closer to the music here.. i am losing myself in this music..
Jo
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
immunity on its happy stroll
I had always thought about it. Also my dad used to tell frequently.
Human beings, having evolved from forest-dwelling monkeys, are able to protect themselves from great ailments.
We ate apples without washing it. We ate rabbits' meat without cooking it. We were perfectly fine. No grave ailments touched us. And we were inherently strong enough to ward off silly diseases like indigestion, cold, head ache, coughs, stomach ache, loose motion, nausea etc...
SPJIMR is a very good institute with the worst infrastructure facilities in this country. This is a popularly known fact, atleast among alumnis, students and faculties.
Infrastructure development so as to have a sprawling campus in a large area is not in question, only because we are in the middle of a city in the largest populous city of the world, mumbai.
Interesting thing is that even little amenitites are in the verge of great peril.
Hygiene is not even a word to be included in the college dictionary. Water is never good for drinking. But they find it ecstatic in proclaiming that samples of water from water coolers were taken and sent to Indian water Sample testing Institute, Central government and found that totally fit for drinking. No body seems to realize the fact that, water smells like rotten egg.
Mess is a very small hall. The basin for washing hands is decorated with last weeks food items. All the employees working in the mess sleep over dining tables and brush their teeth in the basins. I donno whether they take bath in the same basin. I have seen buckets around the place.
Food is not hygienic. People get different kind of ailments from cerebral malaria, chicken pox to viral fever, sore throat, general unwellness etc. I donno whether we have taken patents over diseases which we discovered in SPJIMR. Recently we have appointed a resident doctor which had never been there even after it was ranked one among the top ten collges in business education.
2 things are sure.
1. We are made strong business leaders from inside by improving our power of immunity by constantly contributing challenging situations.
2. The moment we are out of the institute, we wont find ourselvess feeling good without doing something great for the infrastructure development part of the economy for this yet-to-be-superpower nation.
jo
Human beings, having evolved from forest-dwelling monkeys, are able to protect themselves from great ailments.
We ate apples without washing it. We ate rabbits' meat without cooking it. We were perfectly fine. No grave ailments touched us. And we were inherently strong enough to ward off silly diseases like indigestion, cold, head ache, coughs, stomach ache, loose motion, nausea etc...
SPJIMR is a very good institute with the worst infrastructure facilities in this country. This is a popularly known fact, atleast among alumnis, students and faculties.
Infrastructure development so as to have a sprawling campus in a large area is not in question, only because we are in the middle of a city in the largest populous city of the world, mumbai.
Interesting thing is that even little amenitites are in the verge of great peril.
Hygiene is not even a word to be included in the college dictionary. Water is never good for drinking. But they find it ecstatic in proclaiming that samples of water from water coolers were taken and sent to Indian water Sample testing Institute, Central government and found that totally fit for drinking. No body seems to realize the fact that, water smells like rotten egg.
Mess is a very small hall. The basin for washing hands is decorated with last weeks food items. All the employees working in the mess sleep over dining tables and brush their teeth in the basins. I donno whether they take bath in the same basin. I have seen buckets around the place.
Food is not hygienic. People get different kind of ailments from cerebral malaria, chicken pox to viral fever, sore throat, general unwellness etc. I donno whether we have taken patents over diseases which we discovered in SPJIMR. Recently we have appointed a resident doctor which had never been there even after it was ranked one among the top ten collges in business education.
2 things are sure.
1. We are made strong business leaders from inside by improving our power of immunity by constantly contributing challenging situations.
2. The moment we are out of the institute, we wont find ourselvess feeling good without doing something great for the infrastructure development part of the economy for this yet-to-be-superpower nation.
jo
Saturday, August 15, 2009
My QM Professor is very funny
My Quantitative Methods(qm) prof is a funny guy. He used to take exams for us in this subject. For those exams he carefully designs the questions so as to make us laugh in the exam hall with the question sheet in the hand.
Most of his questions will be having an intro-story. The stories are most probably related to real events in the college or its current trends. Or he will be discussing terrorist organisations. These are his favourite areas of research.
I really appreciate his sense of humour and creativity and observation skills.
Some examples of his intro-stories are worth cherishing forever. These examples are from a recent test. One more speciality is that this is the first test in SPjimr in which i got full marks.
Here it goes:
1)
1. An interesting syndrome, called the ESYS (End-session Yawning Syndrome) has been recently discovered in PGP – I. The symptoms emerge only if a session exceeds its time limit by more than 3 minutes. As this is a highly infectious disease, participants who want to be in the good books of faculty are scared. Last week, one such participant invented a test called Apalascopy (named after the inventor) that can detect ESYS at early stage.
2. Requests have been coming to Admin for change of hostel rooms because of snoring roommates. Being sympathetic to the requests, the Admin conducted a survey to find out whether snoring is related to blockage of nostrils or high stress level during the day. Snorers were divided into two categories: (i) irritating snorers and (ii) soothing snorers. The study was limited to the GH only as it was impossible to locate a soothing snorer in BH.
3. Due to acute water shortage, many participants are developing a habit of not taking bath (except on Thursdays and Sundays) before coming to class. However, they do not want to be caught red-handed. Hence, they sprinkle water on their head and apply lot of body spray to create an impression that they take bath everyday, come what may. The SPJIMR Admin and BMC are happy as this saves water, money and time.
4. For most programs at SPJIMR the PG Lab concept is applicable. Apart from serving other academic purposes, participants unanimously agree that it brings the batch closer. Fortunately or unfortunately, every PG lab ends up bringing a few participants (without gender-bias) so close that they start sharing one soul. Hence, quite a few spare souls hang around as unidentified ghostly objects or UGOs without finding a body to enter for quite some time. An empirical data of such UGOs from the current PGP Batch over the next 100 hours of their PG Lab is as given below.
5. Participants are trying to finish their Abhyudaya visits before afternoons to avoid mosquito bites. Others, who do not have any choice, apply Odomos on themselves and their laptops, before the visits. Despite taking precautionary steps, there are cases of mosquito bites, as the mosquito community has developed an antidote for Odomos. The mosquito bites in slums are expected to follow a Poisson distribution with an average of 3.5. The statistics of mosquito bites on last Sunday is as follows.
Orkut's Today's fortune for today: Total absence of humor renders life impossible.
Jo
Most of his questions will be having an intro-story. The stories are most probably related to real events in the college or its current trends. Or he will be discussing terrorist organisations. These are his favourite areas of research.
I really appreciate his sense of humour and creativity and observation skills.
Some examples of his intro-stories are worth cherishing forever. These examples are from a recent test. One more speciality is that this is the first test in SPjimr in which i got full marks.
Here it goes:
1)
1. An interesting syndrome, called the ESYS (End-session Yawning Syndrome) has been recently discovered in PGP – I. The symptoms emerge only if a session exceeds its time limit by more than 3 minutes. As this is a highly infectious disease, participants who want to be in the good books of faculty are scared. Last week, one such participant invented a test called Apalascopy (named after the inventor) that can detect ESYS at early stage.
2. Requests have been coming to Admin for change of hostel rooms because of snoring roommates. Being sympathetic to the requests, the Admin conducted a survey to find out whether snoring is related to blockage of nostrils or high stress level during the day. Snorers were divided into two categories: (i) irritating snorers and (ii) soothing snorers. The study was limited to the GH only as it was impossible to locate a soothing snorer in BH.
3. Due to acute water shortage, many participants are developing a habit of not taking bath (except on Thursdays and Sundays) before coming to class. However, they do not want to be caught red-handed. Hence, they sprinkle water on their head and apply lot of body spray to create an impression that they take bath everyday, come what may. The SPJIMR Admin and BMC are happy as this saves water, money and time.
4. For most programs at SPJIMR the PG Lab concept is applicable. Apart from serving other academic purposes, participants unanimously agree that it brings the batch closer. Fortunately or unfortunately, every PG lab ends up bringing a few participants (without gender-bias) so close that they start sharing one soul. Hence, quite a few spare souls hang around as unidentified ghostly objects or UGOs without finding a body to enter for quite some time. An empirical data of such UGOs from the current PGP Batch over the next 100 hours of their PG Lab is as given below.
5. Participants are trying to finish their Abhyudaya visits before afternoons to avoid mosquito bites. Others, who do not have any choice, apply Odomos on themselves and their laptops, before the visits. Despite taking precautionary steps, there are cases of mosquito bites, as the mosquito community has developed an antidote for Odomos. The mosquito bites in slums are expected to follow a Poisson distribution with an average of 3.5. The statistics of mosquito bites on last Sunday is as follows.
Orkut's Today's fortune for today: Total absence of humor renders life impossible.
Jo
Friday, August 14, 2009
Luck,destiny,kismat
I saw a movie named Luck starring imran khan, Sruti haasan and sanjay dutt.
It was about a game betting on luck of people.
Imran khan used to win all the bets in the film. He was too lucky.
Nowadays lot of films has come with the luck or related themes like..
Jannat: Betting on cricket where imran hashmi wins always. He also was lucky.
99: Betting on cricket again. Boman Irani is very lucky.
Kismat Konnection: Shahid kapoor is a firm believer in Destiny. He believed his object of luck is his girlfriend. he bacame very lucky then.
I also understood the funda of luck. New gen indian youth are believing in luck and numerous ways to attract luck. Destiny is playing a role in the mainstream of the hindu religion as far as i know it.
Later i had this gmail status : Time is an illusion. everything going to happen has already been happened. In a way everything is destined to happen. So enjoy the destiny unravelling..
Too philosophical..?
jo
It was about a game betting on luck of people.
Imran khan used to win all the bets in the film. He was too lucky.
Nowadays lot of films has come with the luck or related themes like..
Jannat: Betting on cricket where imran hashmi wins always. He also was lucky.
99: Betting on cricket again. Boman Irani is very lucky.
Kismat Konnection: Shahid kapoor is a firm believer in Destiny. He believed his object of luck is his girlfriend. he bacame very lucky then.
I also understood the funda of luck. New gen indian youth are believing in luck and numerous ways to attract luck. Destiny is playing a role in the mainstream of the hindu religion as far as i know it.
Later i had this gmail status : Time is an illusion. everything going to happen has already been happened. In a way everything is destined to happen. So enjoy the destiny unravelling..
Too philosophical..?
jo
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
enjoy panicking..its fun
I didn't mind the Swine flu pandemic at first.
I didn't know what it was and how its spreading.
Then I had a seminar on Swine Flu. Then I started panicking.
Schools and Colleges became the amusement park for the H1N1 Virus.
Yesterday I saw a School girl walking behind me. She had no masks.
She was within 6 feet to me.(A sneeze will spread the virus 6 feet).
She had no hanky(Sneeze and cough in hanky to avoid spreading).
I had to take charge of the situation. I walked fast and got escaped from the clutches of swine flu virus. I got really relieved. I resolved not to skip food and take bath and proper sleep.
Later I set my Status message in Gmail and SPJIMR mail :
"Fight Swine Flu: Eat something better than what pigs do.."
The message was highly appreciated.
Jo
I didn't know what it was and how its spreading.
Then I had a seminar on Swine Flu. Then I started panicking.
Schools and Colleges became the amusement park for the H1N1 Virus.
Yesterday I saw a School girl walking behind me. She had no masks.
She was within 6 feet to me.(A sneeze will spread the virus 6 feet).
She had no hanky(Sneeze and cough in hanky to avoid spreading).
I had to take charge of the situation. I walked fast and got escaped from the clutches of swine flu virus. I got really relieved. I resolved not to skip food and take bath and proper sleep.
Later I set my Status message in Gmail and SPJIMR mail :
"Fight Swine Flu: Eat something better than what pigs do.."
The message was highly appreciated.
Jo
I became Jo
I was never Jo. I was called Freejo.. Freejo Jose.
When I joined NITC for my Engineering, north indians called me Freezo...
When I joined Infosys as software engineer, she told she would like to call me Jo...
When I joined SPJIMR for my MBA, i was called many names - 'Hosae', Mr. Jose, Freezo, FreeShow etc.
Two weeks ago, I adopted a girl-child(Sonal) of 8th standard for mentoring which is part of my MBA program(called Abhyudaya). To the marathi-speaking girl, I introduced myself as Jo. She called me Jo dada.
Last Sunday, I went to Kondana Buddhist Caves with TISS College Students for Waterfall Rappelling and other adventure sports. I asked them to call me Jo.
Call it fate, I became Jo.
Jo
When I joined NITC for my Engineering, north indians called me Freezo...
When I joined Infosys as software engineer, she told she would like to call me Jo...
When I joined SPJIMR for my MBA, i was called many names - 'Hosae', Mr. Jose, Freezo, FreeShow etc.
Two weeks ago, I adopted a girl-child(Sonal) of 8th standard for mentoring which is part of my MBA program(called Abhyudaya). To the marathi-speaking girl, I introduced myself as Jo. She called me Jo dada.
Last Sunday, I went to Kondana Buddhist Caves with TISS College Students for Waterfall Rappelling and other adventure sports. I asked them to call me Jo.
Call it fate, I became Jo.
Jo
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