I dont like malayalees

Malayaless are Kolayalees (killers)..she had told me..
She was more a tamilian than a malayalee..perhaps that was the element that kept us together...
We could find non-malayalees in each others...

I dont know from when i started hating the land i was born to...
The more i got to know people from other states of india, the more the hated malayalees...

They are negatively educated - educated to think about only the obstacles and criticize whatever that is happening around the world... Leftist people think that to be able to criticize is a wonderful art and a part and parcel of education... This is not true education.. Education is not the skill to find fault in everything... Education is simply acquiring the knowledge that nothing is perfect...Education is the skill to know the truth rather than taking a perspective and damn it...

It is possible to find fault with everything..once i had written that the seemingly innocent new born babies are cruel, egotistic destructive forces just behind the curtain of time.. It just meant that most of the innocent babies in kerala grow up to become goddam shit eaters and f**kers..
Nothing to be concealed, I am one of them.

Mallu girls are brought up telling them that all the boys exist in kerala only to rape them..
When a boy is first approaching to talk to a mallu girl, first thing she will think about is the pain of penetration when he would rape her..

All mallus are frustrated pieces of shit...Clear indicators are the fact being the largest consumer of alcoholic drinks and being the state in india having the 3 times higher rates of suicides than the average..

This has been a real sweeper of cortisol and releaser of the opioid endorphins in my head...wow..

jo

Trance Experience

Buddha Bar is a lounge,chill out music which can guide you in a trance...
And trance is a state where you feel and all you can do is feel only...
Whatever you can feel , you cant express...Music is so subtle that you wont bother expressing it to others...

Those who have done yoga or meditation continuously and regularly knows what a trance is...Psychologically its an ASC (Altered state of consciousness)...
Zen says more you try to express, the more you confuse yourself and others...
So I am not trying to express this...

But in those moments you want to be alone (or need to be alone) and enjoy with the solitude...
I have seen listening to trance in the mornings or just after Yoga is the most effective way to drift into trance...

Last week I had continuous yoga sessions and one day after the practice i returned to my lappy to listen Buddha Bar. I drifted to a sleep, a sleep which you cant escape and so deep.
May be that was what yogis call yoga nidra or something...

I had tried to express this kind of feelings to others, especially my friends Arun and Rahul.
They usually scornfully or sneeringly pass comments.. They take it as a comedy or what i don't know. As usuall they call me 'guru' to poke fun at me or call mad..

Rahul may sometimes lose himself and will argue that theres nothing in this world which u cant express. I see in his eyes a disregard,anger and contempt to the existence - a typical existential angst. Arun is not behind in this regard. He is a evolutionary specialist. He wants to explain everything with evolutionary developments - all hypothetical and not proved. He recommended a book by great biologist Richard Dawkins - The Selfish Gene. It is at my home. Next month when i go home I will take it for a reading for sure.

For a long time I miss that sleep or state. Due to hectic life in Spjimr i have been missing yoga for 3 days. At last i waked up today early and went yoga. In Yoga Bharati (my yoga practising center). i have seen some kind of instructions going on by my yoga master to interested students.. I heard some words of his dictation from distance like 'vital force' and yoga is all about 'controlling the vital force'.. i don't want to miss yoga anymore.

Regards
Jo