Being good and suffering pain

You may be thinking that 'doing/being good' is a privilege you have to live in this world with greater comfort. If you think that ethical living will give you an easy living, you are wrong.

Nature teaches it in this way - It doesn't matter if you are a carnivore or a herbivore, other carnivores will never stop hunting you. Doing good is no reason for the wild world to behave nicely to innocent you.

There are a zillion of examples in real life for this many of which you yourself can think of from your personal lives. You may be good. But its not a shield for you to get protected from being cheated by the best of your friends. Its not that you will never be suffering from others actions if you are good. Moral of the story is not that you have to be cruel to prevent.

Most of the people are conditioned to believe that when they do good, only good things will happen to them. Its the duty of the Supreme Being to make arranagements to shower good things to the good doer. Is it that way? Is it not justice if bad things happen to good people?

Too much on doing good without the concept of karma is handicapped. The theory of karma given by Bhagavat Gita says if you do selfless service to the worthy people, you will feel some supreme presence of goodness or happiness in you. There are many people working with NGOs who are living examples to this. This part of human existence is called Spiritual Quotient.

In my college,SPJIMR, we have a faculty named Mr. Parimal Merchant who has been collaborating with various NGOs apart from teaching students. His personal experience says, the selfless acts to the worthy people fills a vaccum. It is like drops of rain water in the dry soil in summer. As a result of this, his personal power increases. He is loved by everyone in the college. Theres nobody in the college who is not a fan of his ways. His personlaity is worth emulating.

So do not lose heart. Do good and feel the supreme being's presence in yourself. Its the easiest and fastet way compared to sitting idle for meditation.

jo

A call for being a yogi

I recently read somewhere, among a set of buddhist monks, a criteria for selecting the 'guru' (gu-darkness,ru-dispel meaning Spiritual Teacher) of the community is the dexterity with which one controls his blood pressure...

Dr. Pravin Koppikar is a very famous doctor having a clinic at Seven Bungalows,Andheri (West),Mumbai. He told i seemed like having flu. He gave me meddication for 5 days. During his regular check up, he found in me blood pressure in a level which is more than normal. My BP measured 140/94 to a normal of 120/80 for a guy of my age. I didn't have jitters hearing that. Praneeth, my friend in next room of hostel, asked me how you are so cool having known your condition.

The doctor gave me a one page info leaflet for letting me know more about Hypertension(HT). HT can not be cured unfortunately but can only be controlled. This is a positive sign. This is something which goes with my subtle desire of becoming a yogi. I resolve to do yoga for reducing my weight, stress and bp forever. There were no great physical cause to do it. But now i can see all the fingers pointing to me being a yogi.

I can't forget the awe and wonder with which i read the legendary popular book by a yogi, Yogi Yogananda Pramahamsa. I had bought it from Mangalore central railway station for Rs.125 when i was about to journey to my home in kerala. All the yogic powers which is mentioned in the book, i will be posessing. I will be beyond doubt knowing the supreme truth. The tomorrow has become better with this hypertension. Now starts a new life with ht...

jo

I am not a marketing guy, I am a finance guy.

I am not at all a marketing guy. I had applied a lot to many B-schools for marketing specialisation. I didn't get through even a single one. I had thought that interviews and Group discussions are meant to all specialisation. I had thought they won't evaluate you on the basis of the specialisation i have applied for. That was a foolish thing from my side. No B-school found the 'marketing stuff' in me. But somehow ,fortunately, I reached in a blessed institution called SPJIMR and in Finance specialisation.

I remember the day I filled the Online Application Form of S.P.Jain Institute of Management and Research, Mumbai. First among the stuffs to be filled was Finance. In a single page, specialisation opting for was being asked, and a submit sign! I don't know what happened, consciously or subconsciously I selected 'Finance' and pressed the 'Submit' Button! Whoosh! I realised in that split second, there's something unusual going on. I had always opted for Marketing in all the other B-schools and now i had just opted finance. I checked for all ways in the website to change the specialisation already submitted. It went to a wasted attempt. But i didn't bother about it. I felt i will be fine with whatever specialisation i would be taking.

All this happened after that filling of application form in spjimr.org. I got selected in the first list itself for Finance specialisation in SPJIMR. And no other Big institutes selected me. K.J Somaiyya Mumbai, IFMR Chennai, SIBM Bangalore etc didn't take me. A momentary sadness prevailed then. Last among the colleges who aired out the results were SPJIMR. Last week of April 2009. In night I was not getting sleep. i waked up at around 2.30- 3.00 am and checked the SPJIMR website. And..the last moment of striving to get into a reputed B-school. I didn't prepare for interview, I didn't enjoy the interview so as to receive positive vibes from the Panel. And now i am here in SPJIMR.

When I was in Trimester 1, for the purpose of an assignment in 'Organisational behaviour' a.k.a 'People and Performance' course, I had asked many friends about myself. Name of the assignment was 'Reflected Best Self' or RBS. It was for finding out how the people around you, with whom you lived with, you studied with, you worked with, etc. are thinking about me. How is the process 'me' occurs to others. One of my friends who was my classmate in Mechanical Engineering batch of 2002-06, George K Perekkat or simply 'Pera' responded to me in a very precise and deep manner. He wrote back to me and among the list was this line 'An introvert but trying to be extrovert'.

Now I know myself better. I was deluded by extrovertish people being lauded by others for possessing so-called heroic qulaities like eloquency, courage, public speaking, communication skill,etc. I am basically an introvert. I am not good in communication skills. I am not a spontaneous person. I am a thinking person. I am not a doing person. I am an analytical detail oriented person. I am not basically an intuitive person. I am a mathematical person. I am not a histroy/social-studies/english/extracurricular-activities person. So I am realising myself right here and now. I am a finance guy.

I really felt in the wee hours of the morning, i was destined to be here in this institute in this specialisation...

jo

Coming out of the Vicious Circle of loneliness

I wonder if i am in a vicious circle of loneliness...
Once i was suffering from depression. Then i became an introverted, reserved and non-social loner. I kept myself away from the people. I tasted how the depression feels like. I know it and i know at the cost of my health, vigour, extraversion and humour sense. It made me a loner. The loneliness in return makes me depressed. Perpetual vicious circle of loneliness..

Its like vicious circle or poverty. You don't have money for investing on yourself. You remain poor. And you don't have money to invest on your children also. Perpetual vicious circle of poverty..

All the vicious circles of negative things are like this i suppose.. For breaking this circle what got introduced into the economy is the Investment, investment by poor in whatever possible and investment by others which has the potential to change the live of poor.

I want in my life such an investment from my side and attempt to stimulate investment by others.. How to get it be done ? how to get out of this ...?

Being a philosopher, i have to keep myself in grief forever so that i can be a philosopher for ever..? Socrates was made philosopher by the meaningless pathetic life he had. Philosophy is a ghost which refuse to leave you in grief. It is an escape from reality? I really don't know.

jo

Trade Offs of being Unique

Unique-ness is there in what you are and not in what you become..
I think i am unique in the way i am.. One way to find out how unique you are is by Opinion Method..
Opinion or Perspective method is to get to know the mob opinion and compare it with yours for finding the uniqueness of the opinion or perspective..

Most of the times i like the movies that most of the people tell as crap. I don't know what is that factor in the movies i like which is despised by or ignored by other majority of people.

I have uncommon suggestions about a thing which most of the people find it hard to go along...
This is not my inefficiency..but the world is not yet ready to take the ideas of tomorrow.

All these are the cases. So should i do some fundamental changes in my behaviour to make my life and perspective compliant with the normal way of mundane life... i had tried it a lot and more i tried the more i realised i can't change myself.

Sometimes there exists something in me as a hard-to-redeem curse which i cannot do anything with.. Now a days that is loneliness.. Why i am a loner? I had recently read my horoscope and found sometimes i turns into a loner by no apparent reason...
Before this scenario I had a curse or blessing of social inclusiveness. I was a popular figure in my company where i worked... Whenever i tried to be otherwise, somehow the opposite(what i did not intend) happened with increased intensity.

Also, If I am doing what people are doing, what is the point in being me? The perfection of my-ness is the imperfection of being me. Whatever be the way i feel in myelf..that is the way i am. More on feeling of myself is yet to be explored..

jo